Worry Wart!

I have moved from anger, frustration, and sadness to worry. Some things are rational to worry about, others, are not. Here is a list.

*Loosing too much weight from barfing too much
*My relationship failing
*My relationship succeeding
*My child has no legs (haven't felt movement yet)
*My child is a paraplegic (see above)
*My child's heart stopped beating (see above)
*Worrying too much
*Post-pardum depression
*Being 1/2 way through my pregnancy
*Finding a new place
*Never finding a new place
*Worrying too much
*My best friend not being at the birth
*Going into labor RIGHTNOW (I had a dream about it last night)
*Something going wrong with the ultrasound
*My boobs not working (they haven't grown very much)
*Scratching my nipples off (they are itchy, why??)
*My boobs don't work and I am going to scratch them off
*Why are they itchy???
*Stretch marks
*My cat eating my baby (he eats everything)
*Never sleeping more than 3 hours at a time ever again (it's starting now
*Worrying too much
*Worrying too much
*Worrying too much
*Accidently finding out the sex at the ultrasound
*Not being able to name the baby what I want to name it.
*Boyfriends parents wanting to baptize my child
*Giving birth on the 5th of June
*Having a C-section
*Where is my food?!
*Why can't I eat after 8? I want to eat after 8! Is my baby going to starve?
*I want a tuna melt, but I can't have tuna. Is there a tuna-less tuna? I WANT IT!
*Melting cheese ontop of a tuna can and trying to eat it without getting at the tuna.
*eating tuna
*I really want a tuna melt
*Worrying too much.

My next appointment is on the 12th with the midwife, so I can ask her the majority of these questions, and she is really good at soothing my fears with one sentence "duh" answers.

For example:
Me: "Um. My family.. Well.. Every other generation has twins, and my mom was a twin, and didn't have twins, so I'm going to have twins, and I am a nanny for twins and I don't know if that kinda thing is contagious or not but I got pregnant when I was working for them, and it's my turn to have twins and and and and..."
Her: "Well, it either is, or it isn't."
Me: "Oh, right."

Her: "Well, your uterus is heavily tilted to the left, hahaha, tricky little thing! No wonder we couldn't find the heartbeat!"
Me: "Is that going to be a problem with labor? Omg is it going to get stuck? or be crooked? Am I going to have a baby bump coming out of my left side?? OMG MY BABY IS GOING TO BE L SHAPED!!!!"
Her: "It won't be an issue. Your uterus is going to get bigger, and it can really only go up and out, or in your case, up, out, and to the right. It'll right itself."
Me: "Oh, right."

So hopefully she will be able to ease my mind. My ultrasound is on the 20th and my mother is coming up for that!!! WOOO! I am actually really excited.